Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Putting a Nickname on Love

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Name?
Winns.

Age?
Eighteen, brother man.

Why do you go by the name, Winns?
I don't know, man. This nickname started in High School in maybe 10th or 11th grade. My name is pretty epic, but people tend to shorten it and I adopted it as my own. I like the nickname and I think it suites me. I'm avid supporter of nicknames. I've noticed that with people that have affected my life in some way, I give them a nickname. Obviously some names can't just be turned into nickname because they are already to short or their names would have ridiculous nicknames, but I tend to love a nickname or two.

What are you afraid of?
I was afraid of the dark for a large portion of my life. Not like, I need a night light, but if the whole house or area was dark and I had to be go into it, I was afraid. I think it is because I like to be secure with every situation I am presented. Besides that, the only thing I'm really afraid of is getting old. Hey, I don't want to be inept when it comes to mundane activities but who doesn't.

Have you ever been in love?
No, I haven't. 

No follow-up?
What is there to say? I've been with people and when I look back on it, I don't think it could ever be called love. I don't know what definition of love I'm looking for, but I haven't found it yet. Maybe I can understand love better if I experience it but is it really true love if I just experience it and not spending the rest of my living days with that person? What if I missed my chance at love? I don't know what to feel about it because Love and I aren't usually in the same sentence.

Interesting. Going on the emotional side, when was the last time you cried?
Hmm. I don't know. Let me think. First off, I don't usually cry. I usually get frustrated with life and when that's too much, then I cry. Everyone cries, but I don't do it much. A good cry is good for you sometimes. Feels like it cleanses the soul or is just something to prolong the suffering. Big deal. I remember the last time I did cry. I was very frustrated one night about my current situation in life and talking to my friend Sarah Perez and I just started crying on the computer. It was sudden. I don't know what came over me, but it happened. The funny thing is that the last time I cried before that, with some real feeling behind it, was when I had to say by to her before going to college. I don't cry much but when I do, its got some feeling behind it.

No witty title for his blog entry?
Psht, I'm too lazy, kids. Make one yourself.

That's a bit harsh?
I know what's a bit harsh? Life. Haha. I crack myself up sometimes. (I did anyway)



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Listen to: Crying Shame by Jack Johnson

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