long walk.

I took a walk today.

I said everything that was on my mind.

Some out loud to myself,

others in my head

And I felt better.

Much better.

I'm a wreck right now.

I have become, in a way, everything I hate. I was letting things get to me. Little things and I've just been a whiny bitch for the past few months because I don't want to deal with my problems and I want to get advice and help with someone else when I'm doing all this to myself. It is immature. Very immature. I realize that. I also realize that, even though I was reaching out for people, only a very few actually cared to take a few moments of their time to see what's up. I'm being ridiculous and I've got to stop doing this to myself. I will or it will be the death of me.

I can't wait until the summer. These days of great weather reminds me of the care free times that I miss ever so much. I can't wait to go back home and just chill. I want to take hold of the time I have of the summer. I want to travel very badly. I have a goal to make it to all 50 states before I die and stay there without using a hotel and stay with a friend or in a car or something like that. It is ambitious goal, but I want to try it. I need to read more and write me. I don't think my abilities in the English Language are that great at all, so I need to work on it. I don't want one boring moment this summer. I can have lazy days. Just not boring days. There is a HUGE difference. 

I am in Angels in America and the show opens in two days. We still have so much work to do, but I am excited. To the fullest. And nervous. Dramatic plays make nervous. I am never nervous about musicals and stuff. It just happens for me, but I am nervous about my performance in a couple of days AND sad it will end. I loved everything about working on this play. So much fun and so much growth. 

Listen to: Hella Nervous!!! by Gravy Train 

LMFAO. Best song EVER.